Discovering Myself

Relationships gone wrong, failure in something you desperately wanted, a lesson from a bad experience, joy from little happiness, unexpected love from a friend; we all taste the Salt and Sugar of life. Here are some similar to those, mixed with some of my own! The Universal Anti-Depressant She threw pages around after having ruined them already by writing and over-writing and scratching and darkening. She just couldn’t think of anything. She couldn’t make any decision, couldn’t perform her tasks well, and threw tantrums out of her outbursts of mood swings. Nothing was going right and their advice was to make a list ? Yeah, dude I’ve got a whole bunch of things to do that I’m don’t know how to even start with, and you ask me to make a list! When she fumbled with all her tasks she was supposed to do, tried planning out strategies, in between which got even bored with her random doodling, her phone rang. “Mom!” She talked her usual stuff with her but suddenly she felt calmer

Forgive me, for what I’m gonna do right now is just blabber. I haven’t written since ages! Not that I’ve been overwhelmingly busy or lazy or even pretending to be, rather I’m always flooded with ideas when I’m most swamped, following which I’d make a note to myself to write a blog about it. Even sentences would start forming up in my mind…but I’d be too tied up to jot them down.

I stood by the window, silently. Watching the sun slowly setting down the horizon bidding it goodbye after another day. And I still kept waiting for YOU. You had promised you'd call. When was that, though? Probably you were caught up with something. Probably your mom was sick again and you were worried and didn't want to worry me.

It had been a long day and she was returning home with her dad. Her dad was not very talkative and she seemed to like that. Except for the usual "How was your day?" and stuff, they didn't talk much and she just looked around silently, pondering on her day that had just passed.

Most of my readers are aware of my fate that met me the very first day of my college last year. Though being the only girl in Mechanical Engineering is not really a surprise to those who know about it…but being alone especially when you already have six others for company is rather a raising-eyebrows one. And well, yeah, I was that “lone” girl, thanks to my roll number which could not be 3 more numbers behind or I could be in second section (ME-B) leaving the first section (ME-A) completely bereft of girls! :P Though I managed to get permission to sit in the girls-wala section (as I call it) in the I sem, I could not get so in the next one.

I pray to thee, masters of the world, Forgive me, if I've ever been wrong. All I wanted was to give you life. All I ask you for is to live by your side.